Dara Putra Nijo Deho
Goptritve Varana Song 2
dārā-putra-nija-deho-kuṭumba-pālane sarvadā
vyākula āmi chinu mane mane
Within my heart I have always been anxious for the maintenance of my wife and children, my own body and relatives.
kemone
arjibo artha, yaśa kise pābo kanyā-putra-vivāha
kemone sampādibo
How will I earn money? How will I obtain fame? How will I arrange the marriages of my sons and daughter?
ebe
ātma-samarpane cintā nāhi ār tumi
nirvāhibe prabhu, saṁsāra tomār
Now, through self-surrender, I have been purged of all anxiety. O Lord, surely You will provide for the maintenance of Your household.
tumi
to' pālibe more nija-dāsa jāni' tomāra
sevāya prabhu boḍo sukha māni
Surely You will preserve me, knowing me to be Your own servant. O Lord, in Your devotional service I feel great happiness.
tomāra
icchaya prabhu sab kārya hoy jīva
bole,--`kori āmi', se to' satya noy
All events take place by Your will, O Lord. The deluded soul of this world declares, "I am the doer," but this is pure folly.
jīva
ki korite pare, tumi nā korile? āśā-mātra
jīva kore, tava icchā-phale
If You do not act first, then what is a tiny soul actually able to do? By Your will he can only desire to act, and unless You fulfill his desire, he cannot do anything.
niścinta
hoiyā āmi sevibo tomāy gṛhe
bhālo-manda ho'le nāhi mora dāy
I will serve You free from all anxiety, and at home, if any good or evil should occur, it will not be my responsibility.
bhakativinoda
nija-swātantrya tyajiyā tomāra
caraṇa seve' akiñcana hoiyā
Bhaktivinoda thus gives up his independence and engages in the exclusive service of Your lotus feet with no other interest in life.
Translation
Within my heart I have always been anxious for the maintenance of my wife and children, my own body and relatives.
How will I earn money? How will I obtain fame? How will I arrange the marriages of my sons and daughter?
Now, through self-surrender, I have been purged of all anxiety. O Lord, surely You will provide for the maintenance of Your household.
Surely You will preserve me, knowing me to be Your own servant. O Lord, in Your devotional service I feel great happiness.
All events take place by Your will, O Lord. The deluded soul of this world declares, "I am the doer," but this is pure folly.
If You do not act first, then what is a tiny soul actually able to do? By Your will he can only desire to act, and unless You fulfill his desire, he cannot do anything.
I will serve You free from all anxiety, and at home, if any good or evil should occur, it will not be my responsibility.
Bhaktivinoda thus gives up his independence and engages in the exclusive service of Your lotus feet with no other interest in life.