Ami Sei Dusta Mati
Yamuna Bhavavali Song 16
( hari he) āmi sei duṣṭa-mati nā
dekhiyā anya-gati taba pade lo'yechi
śaraṇa jānilama āmi nātha tumi prabhu
jagannātha āmi taba nitya parijana
Oh my dear Lord Hari! I am most fallen, and seeing no other alternative, I have taken full shelter at Your lotus feet. Oh Lord! Now I have finally understood that You are known as Jagannatha, Lord of the Universe, whereas I am but Your eternal servant.
sei dina kabe ha'be aikantika-bhābe
jabe nitya-dāsa-bhāba lo'ye āmi
manorathāntara jata nihśeṣa koriyā
swatah ̣ sebibo āmāra nitya-swāmī
When will that day come when I will take on the mood and behavior of Your unalloyed eternal servant? Then, all other distracting desires of my mind will automatically become totally exhausted, and I will be able to whole-heartedly render service to my eternal Master.
nirantara sebā-mati bahibe cittete
satī praśānta hoibe ātmā mora
e bhaktibinoda bole kṛṣṇa-sebā-kutūhole
ciro-dina thāki jena bhora
My soul will become fully satisfied when that day will be mine. My heart will be chaste only to You, and it will exhibit such a service attitude which flows from the core of the heart with uninterrupted devotion. Bhaktivinoda says that he will thus live eternally absorbed in such a delightful flow of ecstatic loving service to Krsna.
Translation
Oh my dear Lord Hari! I am most fallen, and seeing no other alternative, I have taken full shelter at Your lotus feet. Oh Lord! Now I have finally understood that You are known as Jagannatha, Lord of the Universe, whereas I am but Your eternal servant.
When will that day come when I will take on the mood and behavior of Your unalloyed eternal servant? Then, all other distracting desires of my mind will automatically become totally exhausted, and I will be able to whole-heartedly render service to my eternal Master.
My soul will become fully satisfied when that day will be mine. My heart will be chaste only to You, and it will exhibit such a service attitude which flows from the core of the heart with uninterrupted devotion. Bhaktivinoda says that he will thus live eternally absorbed in such a delightful flow of ecstatic loving service to Krsna.