Ami Aparadhi Jana
Yamuna Bhavavali Song 17
hari he āmi aparādhī jana sadā daṇḍya
durlakhaṇa sahasra sahasra doṣe
doṣī bhīma-bhabārṇabodare patita
biṣama ghore gati-hīna gati-abhilāṣī
Oh my Lord Hari! I have been a great offender to You, and thus I am just quite fit to receive punishment for all of my misdeeds. I am sinister and ill-fated, and I am guilty of committing thousands upon thousands of sins. I have somehow fallen into the very belly of the terribly deep, dark, fearsome and horrible ocean of material existence, and I have no shelter at all in this hellish place. Therefore I am greatly desirous of finding some way to get salvation from this dreadful predicament.
hari taba pada-dwoye śaraṇe loinu
bhoye kṛpā kori ' koro ātma-sāṭha
tomāra pratijñā ei śaraṇa loibe
jei tumi tā'ra rakhā-kartā nātha
Hari! Thus I have taken refuge at Your two lotus feet out of intense fear, Please be kind to me and make me Your own property. Your promise is that for whoever takes full shelter of You, then You will become his protector and maintainer, Oh Lord.
pratijñāte kori ' bhara o madhaba
prāṇeśwara śaraṇa loilo ei dāsa
e bhaktibinoda gāya tomāra se
rāṅgā-pāya deho dāse sebāya bilāsa
Completely relaying on Your promise, this servant has now taken full shelter of You as his last hope, oh Madhava! Oh Lord of my life! Bhaktivinoda sings this prayer to You now just to be eternally fixed up in the service of Your two reddish lotus feet.
Translation
Oh my Lord Hari! I have been a great offender to You, and thus I am just quite fit to receive punishment for all of my misdeeds. I am sinister and ill-fated, and I am guilty of committing thousands upon thousands of sins. I have somehow fallen into the very belly of the terribly deep, dark, fearsome and horrible ocean of material existence, and I have no shelter at all in this hellish place. Therefore I am greatly desirous of finding some way to get salvation from this dreadful predicament.
Hari! Thus I have taken refuge at Your two lotus feet out of intense fear, Please be kind to me and make me Your own property. Your promise is that for whoever takes full shelter of You, then You will become his protector and maintainer, Oh Lord.
Completely relaying on Your promise, this servant has now taken full shelter of You as his last hope, oh Madhava! Oh Lord of my life! Bhaktivinoda sings this prayer to You now just to be eternally fixed up in the service of Your two reddish lotus feet.